3girls1yoyo

how far I’ve come

Christine — Fri, 26 Aug 2011 05:04:05 +0000

As you can see from the last post it has been a long time since I have been here. As I was reading my older post I was reminded how far I have come and also how much I have grown. Which is exactly the reason we are here.

One other that I realized is I like my writing. I like how my mind works and how it comes out on paper. I will continue to write I can’t wait to read this in a few months to see all the things that I have done and how far I have come. So stay tuned…..

The need to write…..

Christine — Wed, 24 Aug 2011 05:47:09 +0000

I am so slow at doing what I am supposed to be doing. In my heart I know I am supposed to be writing and my head talks me out of every single time…..Why…..

I am going to write….

Sundays

Christine — Sun, 13 Feb 2011 11:17:59 +0000

1. (Abbr. Sun. or S) The first day of the week.
2. The Sabbath for many Christians.

Sundays are the best day of the week for me. Even through we have to get up early for church and not be able to sleep in. I guess that is what Saturday’s are for. It is a day I feel feed spiritually feed. It is a day of rest for me. I am able to just sit and relax for a while. We have a nice dinner together and get ready for the week. A day of just taking a breath and being able to look back on the past week and the week ahead. A day I don’t need to run to the store and grab something or run errands. I just love Sundays.

Crashing Down

Christine — Sat, 12 Feb 2011 04:24:53 +0000

Have you ever had the a promptings/thoughts over and over and you finally do something about it? Well that is me tonight writing on my blog. I have had this thought over the past few months to start writing about things that have happened to me and my family over the past few years.

This is going to be difficult to talk about but I am wanting/needing to write about this because I need my children to be able to listen and learn from their parents about the mistakes and decision we have made in the past and how we have been able to work through them to be able to be a better example to our children. And also maybe reach someone out there that maybe going through some of this stuff themselves and let them know they too can make it and don’t ever give up.

Does anyone remember 2008? Well, I do. My life slowly came crashing down on us. Life as I have always known it changed in a heart beat. The economy tanked and so did business. We had to start dumping stuff (material things) quickly to be able to make our house payment, pay the electric bill, water, food, etc…. All of our savings had been depleted. So many things, feelings, conversations, phone calls happened I am sure I have blocked most of them out for my own mental protection. We had to make a very drastic and heart breaking decision to make and we did and I will NOT look back and have regrets because I knew for my own sanity and my families protection I had made and to keep moving forward.

During this time I thought all of the “things” in my life defined who I was. I though if I could go shopping anytime I wanted meant I had made it in the world, if I had nice big cars I was important, if I had all the latest stuff I was cool, go on the biggest vacations we were super cool parents, etc…. I think you get the picture. Remember this is what I thought about how to be a good parent was. If I didn’t have the big car who was I really, if I couldn’t take the family on vacation each year what kind of parent was I?

I struggled to find who I was during all of this. I isolated myself to a very small group of family and friends that knew what we were going through. I was embarrassed of my situation.

To begin to tell you how much I learned about myself is so much. I realize my life is not defined by my home, my car, our clothes, etc…..It will be defined by how I handled struggles in life, how my children our in society, how much I love my husband and family, how many times I tell my family I love them, how many smiles I have in my house. That is how my life is defined.

Now February 2011 I am so grateful for all of the thoughts, feelings, ups and down of our journey. We have all adjusted to our new SIMPLE life we have now. I am grateful for a wonderful husband that never once gave up and did everything in his power to hold our family together. I am grateful for my faith and my family. I know they are the reason I live each day.

I pray that I can continue to be an example to my husband and my children each day to be the best they can and always live below your means and ALWAYS be prepared.

2010 here i come

Christine — Sat, 09 Jan 2010 06:00:02 +0000

So a week or so into the new year and all is going well. 2009 was a year of lots of lessons being learned. Some VERY large lessons. I am amazed we made it through most of them unharmed. Yes some are still being taught and I am hoping I am a good student. I am trying and continually working to be a better person, parent, wife, secretary, listener and friend just a all around better person. I know that I come with lots of imperfections and at the end of the day I hope that everyone that is a part of my life will be understanding and forgiving for my shortfalls. So 2010 here I come ready or not!

Consume My Time

Christine — Tue, 24 Nov 2009 05:26:19 +0000

As I was sitting on the phone this morning with my husband talking about the same stuff we always talk about he says to me that I am spending a lot of time on one subject which stopped me in my tracks. I would say this subject has been consuming much of my time for the past year. I have been thinking of this statement most of the day today. Do you think he could be right? Maybe this subject needed to consume my time over the past year?

Again what am I supposed to be learning/teaching/experiencing during this trial? Maybe loving unconditional, accepting people for who they are, letting people have their agency, not being controlling, saying sorry, understanding I don’t have all the answers and we all fall down and then pick ourselves up and dust ourselves off and move on to the next phase of life.

At the end of the day I know the subject that has been taking up so much of my time will be okay and is worth it.

The Journey We Choose

Christine — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 06:17:10 +0000

Have you ever though about how you got to were you are today? This thought has been coming to me lately as I have been on FB lately. As you start to think of all the friends you had many years ago. I have been thinking back to my high school days and all of my friends, all the football games, the weekends at parties, the sleep over, etc. And how I felt that about myself and how I felt around my friends. I was not the most popular girl in school but, I did have lots of different people I would hang out with. High school for me was something I had to do and I just wanted to get out and I did.

The years after high school were interesting. I started hanging out with a totally different group of friends that were older than me and we love to have a good time together. And we did. I wouldn’t have traded that time in my life because it was the next step in my journey.

Maybe I am saying all of this because as I sit and watch my children on their own journey they must have their own experiences in life to make them the persons they are and will become.

But, man this is painful to watch sometimes. As I have sat here and wanted to throw in the towel many of times because I can’t watch much more but, then I remember my own path and how I became the person I am and I am sure my parents have had the same thoughts and feelings but never did. I just love these children I have been given and it breaks my heart to watch the choices they will make. Man I just want to go in and fix it but I just can’t anymore. I need to keep reminding my self is to always love them and always show them the road home.

I hope one day they will all look back over their life and love their journey and have no regrets.

Mindless Fun……….

Christine — Thu, 30 Jul 2009 06:31:26 +0000

Have you ever had a time in your life when you were so focused on was all the “junky” stuff and then suddenly realized you had forgotten to have some fun along the way. That was my realization tonight.

We had just had this long meeting with our insurance guy for two hours and after he left Tim went to jump in the shower to get ready for the next meeting he was off too and I was getting dinner ready and leaving in a little bit for mutual. Then I just had this thought what did I do today that was just a little bit fun. Nothing came to my mind. So as Tim was getting ready I was talking to him about this and thinking lets do something mindless ever now and then.

I know these times won’t last forever. I know this part of my life will be over one day and I know without a doubt I will look back and be so thankful for all the lessons learned and how much closer my family has become.

So with that being said I will take time each day to just laugh and let go and relax and enjoy life today……..Today is all we have…………

“Biking”

Christine — Mon, 13 Jul 2009 06:49:10 +0000

A few weeks ago I got on a “road bike” and feel in love. When I ride I just let all my worries go away and my mind just is quite for a little bit. No I am not the fastest or have a gone very far (20 mile ride so far) but, I am just loving the sport.

I am now working on getting a bike of my own but, they are pricey like all sports or hobby we chose. Over the past few weeks I have been shopping and wow is the information confusing there is so much stuff you should have or maybe would like to have. So needless to say I am a little overwhelmed by this process but, I know I will find the right one for me.

My sweet husband is trying to gather the money for me which makes me tear up a bit. Maybe soon I will have a post with me on my bike.

Are we done yet?

Christine — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 06:20:12 +0000

Can you remember a time when you were going though something hard or something that maybe was taking its toll on you? And then you hear about someone trials and think well I should be grateful this is all I have to endure right now, but somehow it just doesn’t make your stuff any easier or bring much comfort to your own situation. Well I have been thinking of that thought lately and even though I can be compassionate about someone else trial I still have my own to go through and man am I ever ready for this lesson/trial to be over. But, that is proably the lesson I am supposed to be learning. Dang it. I know I will get this right soon!